I find myself extremely cautiously optimistic that all is well. My symptoms, while never necessarily strong, are still hanging around, and whereas last week I was struggling with some anxiety, I'm currently feeling more relaxed, calm, and ready to face the future. I attribute that to another surge of the good pregnancy hormones. I get some minor, mild cramping followed by bouts of pulling, tugging, stretching, etc. I'm not bleeding, heavily spotting, or severely cramping. Now, I'm not completely naive and know those things can still take place, or not take place, even with a not viable pregnancy; but I chose to take those as somewhat good news.
It's almost like I don't want Wednesday to arrive but, yet I do. If all is well I want to know so I can return back to my state of 100% happy and get out of limbo. Yet, if it's the alternative, that small level of comfort will be taken away. However, if that's our road we'll travel down it together knowing full well that we'll be ok, our little one will be back in Heaven (not a bad place to be), and when the time is right, we'll try again.
We have a lot of people praying for us and several have remarked (hubby included) that they have a feeling all is well. Hubby even said he thinks that on Wednesday the doctor will see our little one flipping her off for doubting his/her ability to grow. If that's the case then we'll definitely have a strong, independent, little one on our hands (with some possible minor anger management issues). Ehh....I could think of worse things to contend with. :)
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